How to survive my children growing up

I’m not sure how to survive my children growing up. Today I watched my youngest son drive away to school on his own. Tears welled up in my eyes, and my heart hammered in my chest. I felt nauseous and electrified and lost. And I thought, This is ridiculous....

When Grief keeps coming back

I have an old friend who keeps coming back. Her name is Grief. She’s been traveling a bit lately, and I haven’t missed her. But last night, while she was visiting someone else, she touched base with me again. The three of us had an unintentional...

Dear future Daughter-in-law,

Dear future Daughter-in-law, I am going to be your mother-in-law some day. At present, you are perhaps frightened of my title and my position, as I could be of yours. But then, of course, you don’t know me yet. At least, you might not. But you’ve heard the...

10 things I love about Christmas

  Who doesn’t love Christmas? There are so many reasons why I do. These are just 10 of the reasons I do, in approximate order: Decorating the Christmas tree–so many memories there: my childhood, my mother, my kids’ pictures, ornaments from all...

My first birthday without my mother

I have a birthday this week. It’s my first birthday without my mother. I’m not asking for “happy birthdays” or even remarks about “how good I look for my age.” I’m just trying to settle into a new decade (yuk!) and lean into...

How compassion wrecks me

Next Tuesday, my husband and I are scheduled to leave for Ethiopia, where our missions team should do construction, teach, and minister in the town of Debre Birhan, near the capital of Addis Ababa. The area has changed dramatically over the 10 years that our church...